Pandora’s Box: “Ode to Manny”….part three

This morning while taking a shower I started thinking and asking myself why is it that after all these years with all the things that have happened to me, why is it that now I asked my doctor to put me on antidepressants?

And then it hit me…Manny is gone.  After battling four different kinds of cancer and winning those battles, it was the fifth cancer that was too much for him.  I thought he would win that battle just like the others and we continued to make plans to go to Spain and I encouraged him to write and work on his book, his memoirs.

Manny passed away on Dec 27, 2008, while I was having my Christmas party.  I kind of like to think that he didn’t want to miss it and was their in spirit.

We met while working on the T.V. show “L.A. Law”.  We became great friends.

Manny was from Cuba, the pre-Castro Cuba, with servants and big mansions and parties.  We had talked about going to Cuba as well.

We shared Salsa music, fried plantains, mofongo, guavas and crazy latina mothers.

He directed the play I wrote, “Juan Y Rosa, La Virgen and Flan”.

He is the one who pointed out to me that I accomplish more when I am not in a relationship…and he was right.  We all have that one person that we can bare our soul to, that one person that can tell us like it is and we listen.

Manny, was that person for me.  He was the one person I could tell everything to and he never judged me, nor I him.

He was my soul mate, my best friend, my therapist, my personal cheerleader,…my beloved friend.

Manny hated the hypocrisy of funerals.  He hated t see people crying and boo-hooing yet they weren’t there when the person was alive and he wanted none of that.

So, there was no funeral, no memorial.  He was cremated and I did not get to mourn him properly.

And that is why I take those little blue pills, because my go-to guy is gone.

And this morning my tears joined the water flowing down my body as I realized that and I cried out to my friend, “Manny, I miss you and I hope you are watching over me…..”

9 Responses to “Pandora’s Box: “Ode to Manny”….part three”

  1. Sage Says:

    LA Law is one of my favourite shows ever. I watched it religiously in High School. I am a big fan of Law Shows, hence why I love Law and Order and Boston Legal.

    I hope Manny is indeed watching over you 🙂

  2. Chris Says:

    Manny was lucky to have a friend like you! Little blues pills just are not the same! I am sorry for your lose. You are making some great personal discoveries…a good pathway to mend the soul.

    • Sex, Spirit & Soul Mates....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      Hola Chris,

      thank you for your words of support. The last two years have been quite interesting, with everything that has been coming up for “review”……and I am sure that everyone has their versions of my stories……

      😉

      ivonne

  3. Doraz Says:

    Our journey in this life is full of many challenges we need to handle, huh? Hope you will have an amazing week. Thank you for the birthday wishes. 🙂

  4. sparxychix Says:

    Hey Ivonne!

    I feel for your loss girl…

    It’s so amazing that you were so blessed to have found such a dear person to share so much with! I hope you smile a huge beautiful smile every single time you think of Manny as you send him your love… 🙂

    I believe that people do not cross paths by accident. I’m certain his voyage along side your life was full of many lessons… and perhaps still is…

    Something that worked for me was writing in my journal… not so much the things I “missed” about someone I cared for but rather what I was grateful for…

    In listing in my journal everything I was grateful for I was able to lift all my pain for people I’d lost or even those who had hurt me… actually come to think of it, I didn’t really “lift” anything… it sort of “lifted” itself! 🙂

    Hope you are well… I think of you often girl and send happy mojo your way!

    Make today a beautiful day Ivonne… You deserve it!

  5. Goose Says:

    I know what it’s like to lose someone close, someone you relied on for advice or just to make you smile when you didn’t think it was possible.

    Thinking and remembering them keeps them close.

    Love, love,

    G xx

  6. R is for Reflections…… « Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate….Ivonne's Journey Says:

    […] Dec 27, 2008 my best friend Manny passed away. see post https://ivonnemontijo.wordpress.com/2010/08/19/pandoras-box-ode-to-manny-part-two/ […]

  7. Shannygirl Says:

    The more of your blogs I read.. the more I see in common. My go to guy.. a rock in my life for the majority of my life died 3 years ago this May. Cancer stole him from me. I miss him so much and there are days that I honestly pick up the phone and start to dial before I realize hes not here anymore…

  8. Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

    I understand, I still have moments when I just want to talk to him but he’s not there, sometimes I just say, Manny look out for me whereever you are….sigh….


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