R is for Reflections……


I started this blog on Feb. 10 2010 with the intention to “share with the world my journey on the path to my soul mate.”

It’s been almost three years and I would love to be writing, “I found HIM!!!!!!” But alas that is not the case.

But what I can say is that, “I have found me.” And maybe at the moment that might be a better thing. In actuality it’s more of a better understanding of who I am and the choices that I have made in my relationships and how so many puzzle pieces over the years have interconnected.

And finally out of desperation I prayed.  I asked mother/father god to please show me what was the obstacle preventing true love from coming my way?

And I had an aha moment …………..

For the rest of the story read, The Illusionist by Ivonne Montijo available on amazon.com








24 Responses to “R is for Reflections……”

  1. jmgoyder Says:

    You are absolutely wonderful! I am gobsmacked that anyone could come through the horrors you describe so heroically. Rest easy with your newfound hope – you are a beautiful person and it will work out. Thanks for such a brave and honest post – sending lovexxx

  2. Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

    Thank you so much for your kind words. It has not been easy putting all the pieces of the puzzle together. I did not even realize all the horrors to just recently. I am just glad that I am still a caring, compassionate person who still has hope and that I did not turn out bitter or like a sociopath. I really think that God is definitely looking out for me. I feel like I have released a big heavy burden off of my heart by writing all of this.



  3. sakuraandme Says:

    Ivonne I’m crying and wish I could hug you! Your path sounds very similar to mine. I still can’t get it right!! I’m so sorry that these shitty things happen in life! I’m thinking of you. I’m working off my IPone out at our block… But my life is a disaster right now. I just can’t talk about it yet! So I’m hugging you hoping your hugging me back! Paula xxxxx

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      Yes, big hugs and kisses back at you . I cried too after I wrote this. I felt like I could finally let the monsters out from under my bed. Sorry to hear thst your life is a mess right now but remember, shit is just fertizer to help the flowers grow. 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

      • sakuraandme Says:

        Thanks Ivonne I loved the hugs! Today’s a little better, but I still have no idea what I’m going to do! Hugs you! Xxxx

        • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

          They were lots of little flowers from my phone but it did not translate on the page—-I am glad you are feeling better 🙂 and it’s ok if you don’t know what you are doing–I suggest a trip to the beach–that always makes me feel better. I am not sure where I am headed either but I am sure that a trip to the beach is somewhere on the agenda!!!!!

          • sakuraandme Says:

            Thanks for making me smile! I’m at the country with Teco and Margie. I’m surrounded by nature. Xxxxxxxx

            • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

              Awesome…nature and animals are just the thing that is needed.

  4. Paula Says:

    Holy smokes!! You have done a thorough inventory of yourself. As someone who has been through AA and some of the 12 steps (a couple of the steps I skipped, I’ll be honest), I commend you for your bravery and boldness to share it with us. This is no easy task. I hope you realize that you broke a barrier few are able to find let alone destroy. XOXO

  5. terry1954 Says:

    I also like you have discovered more of who i am through writing. i never thought i would be good at writing but have found that some like my stories and i enjoy it, so good things do come out of expressing on pages

  6. Mayrbear's Lair Says:

    Wow … what a journey! Such an eloquent complicated dance. When the time is right … all the elements will be in place and the perfect partner will show up in alignment with your authentic selves … without the guise of cloak and dagger. Keep smiling!

  7. Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

    Thank you everyone for all the kinds words of love and support. I certainly had no clue what I would be writing when I started this blog. Wow, best therapy I could have ever engaged in.

    love to everyone



  8. Maryanne Says:

    Whoa, this made me cry too. I just want to give you a great big hug! I’m sorry that all that bad stuff happened to you and hope that all your talent and career gave you a sparkle of happiness along the way. I had some similar bad experiences when I was young, but don’t want to write on the internet. If you ever feel like talking, feel free to email me: maryannechristiano@gmail.com — and if you’re in USA, I can definitely call you sometimes on the phone, as a comforting voice and laughter lifts the spirits a lot better than an email, I think. 🙂

    Anyway, I agree with what you said. I came from a broken home and didn’t understand how amazing true love and stability could be and waited until my 40s to truly seek it (and be receptive to it!) Like you said, I too thought it was exciting to go from one romance to another because that’s all I knew because of the way I grew up. (But now I have a good relationship with everyone in my family — forgiveness is very healing, but then so are boundaries — as you say, “B” for blunt!).

    The good news is, everything can be fixed and you can have the love you truly deserve (and trust me, it’s no way boring and only gets better and better!)

    Much love to you! xoxo

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      Thank you MaryAnne, you are awesome and you inspire me to want to be a better, nicer Ivonne. Hugs taken and given back 🙂


  9. meandtheboss2013 Says:

    As Father Bill used to say…”Two sickies do not make a wellie.”
    Nature or nurture, which came first, was I born that way “The Backward Brain”, or did the events, those people, warp my ability to see reality??
    Great post…just keep on keeping on…know that by helping others with the telling of our story, we help ourselves.
    Love, hugs and prayers…ME and the Boss

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      lol, never heard it put like that but yes so true!!!!!!

  10. ramblingsfromamum Says:

    Putting my arms around you and hugging you tight – that was then – this is now – hardships have been overcome, love has been lost, pain has been felt. 2013 is the year for change – within yourself, what your believe, what you feel, who you shall meet. This little network is here for you now and always xxxxxxx

  11. jocuri cu masini Says:

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  12. Shannygirl Says:

    I admire you that you have found the source of your brokeness and have figured out how to move past it and become unbroken. I’ve been searching for a couple of years now but still can’t find the source of mine. ((((((hugs))))))

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      It’s truly a miracle—because all my life I had never been able to figure it out until now.

  13. Alexis Mcwilliams Says:

    I just want to tell you that I am just very new to weblog and truly liked you’re website. Probably I’m planning to bookmark your site . You really have very good stories. Many thanks for sharing with us your blog site.

  14. Denise Hisey Says:

    Ah, to know oneself is so hard, yet the only way to freedom! Connecting the dots is vital to healing, well done!

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      Thank you Denise, and thank you for stopping by the blog. Healing is an ongoing process. I am still connecting the dots and re-connecting old ones.


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