Misc Update…..

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Marly sitting on a patio chair (yes she chewed up the cushion).

 

Hi everyone,

I hope you are all doing well.  I have been a bit under the radar lately.  Actually I was thrown into a depression and just hanging on so as not to take a leap into that black pit of suicidal thoughts.

How did I get here?  Well it turns out  that the landlord even after I got a personal trainer for the puppies wants me to move out after all.   I can’t really talk about that yet as I am still residing in the same location but when I am moved out I will write about the details.

Yes, that was the last straw for me.  It was a depression in which I would stay up till 4 am watching episodes of the “L Word” fast forwarding through all the sex scenes and then I would get up at 1 or 2 pm because I had to.  But all I really wanted to do was hide under the covers from the world.

It is the panic of being on the streets homeless with 3 dogs and 2 cats.  Business has been slow and my bank account rather than increasing has slowly been decreasing.  I don’t even have the money to move if I found a place.

I have till the end of summer at the latest the end of the year to move out.

So first priority is hiring new performers.  And that has been frustrating because I have hired and trained 4 people in the last 3 months and then they have flaked out on me–so frustrating.

Hiring is top on the list–then saving money to move out.

I am doing better–at least I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel–as long as I don’t get pounded again and I am left in a bit of peace and quiet to go about my business.

Maddy has her eye surgery on Monday.  I tried doing the holistic route with eye drops and massage but to no avail.  Surgery it seems is the only way to fix her cherry eye.

I usually turn down credit card offers but since her surgery is going to cost $900.00 I said yes to one credit card offer.

So, that where I am at in this moment.  I am just hanging on and working on moving forward in a positive way.  And as many of you know that is quite the challenge in and of itself.

I will try to catch up on my blogging. I would like to finish the cruise and New Orleans stories, I know I have some awards that I am so behind on as well, and a poem I promised to write.

So tonight I bought some lottery tickets.  Someone does win after all every couple of months or so.

And as part of the healing journey I will start reading tonight, “The Betrayal Bond”-Breaking free of Exploitative Relationships.  I am almost afraid of what I will learn in reading that book, but I think it’s time.

I love all of my readers and followers–you guys keep me going.  You have been that life saver for me in a sea of turmoil this past year.  I am blessed to know all of you and to share in your stories as well.

lots of love,

Ivonne and the girls…..

22 Responses to “Misc Update…..”

  1. Terry Says:

    I know a little bit of how you feel. I have had to move when I didn’t want to or could afford to. I have also been in and out of lighter depressions ever since my dad died. Having Al home again has helped take my mind off of me and place it on him. I guess for me, I have to by busy all the time so I don’t dwell on missing Dad and wishing my bank account was also increasing

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      Hi Terry, I am doing better now not as bad as last month. Time to put it all in God’s hands I think.

      🙂

      ivonne

  2. Maryanne Says:

    Aw, take care of yourself Ivonne. I had a similar experience years ago when I was single and living alone with my two cats. They decided to triple my rent-controlled place that I lived alone 14 years. I had to find a new place — that would take two cats. So many places say “no” to animals. It’s horrible! Then I finally found a place. It always works out in the end, but I know the pain you are going through right now. ((((HUGS)))

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      Thank you for the hugs. I am doing better now–at least now I am in pro-active mode.
      🙂

      ivonne

  3. celestedimilla Says:

    I am so sorry that you’re going through so much right now Ivonne. I really feel for you girl. I’ve been depressed before, and it’s crappy. I hope that finding a new place and moving ends up going more smoothly than you imagine. I’m sending lots of positive thoughts your way. Celeste 🙂

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      Thank you for the positive energy Celeste, much appreciated.

      ivonne

  4. ramblingsfromamum Says:

    Aww sweet – I am so sorry, I can’t imagine what it must feel like to have the prospect of trying to relocate with your fur-babies in hand. I am glad that you have let us know what has been happening as you did go off the radar for a while. Marly is so adorable even though she’s a cushion chewer! Let me know how Maddy’s surgery went. We are a blogging family and here to share- vent- help however we can. May your lottery tickets be helpful in your current predicament. {{Hugs}} and thoughts sweet xx

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      thank you for your kind words–yes i have been a bit challenged–Maddy’s surgery is tomorrow morning. I had to take away her food and water 4 hours ago. I felt so bad all the doggies were at the spot where the food and water normally is and I couldn’t give them any. Well I don’t think it would be fair for the other two to drink or eat when Maddy can’t. Well, we will be going to bed shortly so food and water won’t be an issue. I did feed them all at 5:30 forcing them to eat. Poor babies are so confused right now.

  5. sakuraandme Says:

    Bugger and bugger again! Leaving my husband in 3 weeks time has been very confronting. But, the thought of being homeless, worse! I too couldn’t find a place as I have my cat and birds. In Oz, not too many people want to rent their house out to people with pets. My brother in law has offered his place for 1 year, I was so relieved and so can imagine the stress your under. My fingers are crossed that you get something even better than where you are. I hate that you are down this cold road as its freezing and I wish I could keep you warm and out of harms way. I’m sending you all the love and warmth I have. Fingers crossed for the lottery. Hugs to you, Ivonne!…Paula xxxxxxxooooo

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      Thank you Paula, you are so amazing. I hope I get to meet you in person someday. Yes, being homeless is my biggest trigger. i have worked on it through the years. A performer would tell me they couldn’t work a weekend last miniute and in 30 seconds my mind would process—omg-I have to cover job- if I can’t agent will never hire me again-I would be able to pay my rent-I’ll be on the street homeless with 3 cats and 2 dogs. Anything involving money would trigger that thought process. This time it’s actually being homeless. Yes, I am hoping to God that God has a new home for me and the 3 dogs and 2 cats. I am commited to the girls–will not give them up under any circumstances. I hope to God the universe is not testing the words I have spoken about people who give up pets to move. The landlord actually told me to get rid of the puppies, serioulsy?!! So yeah, this depression has been interesting battle. I am trying not to panic and to be postive. There is a place for us somewhere out there, and i hope it’s close to the beach.

      hugs and love to you from me and the girls—bed time now…

      • sakuraandme Says:

        I hope you all slept well! I believe in your angels. 🙂
        xxxxxxxx

  6. Kitt Crescendo Says:

    **hugs** Sometimes those hits come out of nowhere. Glad you’re seeing a light at the end of your tunnel, though. I’ll keep you in my thoughts.

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      HI Kitt, thank you so much for your support. Just trying to be positive, one day one step at a time.

      Ivonne

  7. Girl for Animal Liberation Says:

    Some day I hope to have a dog. Currently I have 6 cats.

    • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

      I also have 2 elderly cats as well.

      • Girl for Animal Liberation Says:

        Animals rule. 🙂

        • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

          they certainly do in my home-lol

          • Girl for Animal Liberation Says:

            LOL! Mine too. What are their names? Mine are, in order of age:

            Seti the Great (Beef Cake is his nickname cuz he’s 22 lbs)
            Samwise Gamgee (Sammy for short)
            Azizi (Snaggly is his nickname)
            Anubis (Scooby is his nickname)
            Mother Teresa (MT for short or Mamma)
            Buddy (Magilla Gorilla is his nickname because he’s a rescue Maine Coon and he’s HUGE like a gorilla. Ha-Ha!)

            • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

              doggies are Missy-8, Maddy and Marley 9 months–kitties are Selena-20 yrs and Gracie 19 years……..

              • Girl for Animal Liberation Says:

                Ha-Ha! Great names. Grazia (Grace) is my middle name. 🙂

              • Sex, Spirit, Soul Mates and Chocolate....Ivonne's Journey Says:

                Gracie was named for the song Amazing Grace, the line I once was lost but now I am found—since I found her living on the streets…..

              • Girl for Animal Liberation Says:

                I love that… 3 of my 6 are rescues… it feels good helping the voiceless.

                This is one of my favorite local shelters. They sent out the following alert this morning about a blind momma cat and her babies. I wished I could have adopted her — she seemed so sweet. 😦


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