Marly sitting on a patio chair (yes she chewed up the cushion).
I hope you are all doing well. I have been a bit under the radar lately. Actually I was thrown into a depression and just hanging on so as not to take a leap into that black pit of suicidal thoughts.
How did I get here? Well it turns out that the landlord even after I got a personal trainer for the puppies wants me to move out after all. I can’t really talk about that yet as I am still residing in the same location but when I am moved out I will write about the details.
Yes, that was the last straw for me. It was a depression in which I would stay up till 4 am watching episodes of the “L Word” fast forwarding through all the sex scenes and then I would get up at 1 or 2 pm because I had to. But all I really wanted to do was hide under the covers from the world.
It is the panic of being on the streets homeless with 3 dogs and 2 cats. Business has been slow and my bank account rather than increasing has slowly been decreasing. I don’t even have the money to move if I found a place.
I have till the end of summer at the latest the end of the year to move out.
So first priority is hiring new performers. And that has been frustrating because I have hired and trained 4 people in the last 3 months and then they have flaked out on me–so frustrating.
Hiring is top on the list–then saving money to move out.
I am doing better–at least I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel–as long as I don’t get pounded again and I am left in a bit of peace and quiet to go about my business.
Maddy has her eye surgery on Monday. I tried doing the holistic route with eye drops and massage but to no avail. Surgery it seems is the only way to fix her cherry eye.
I usually turn down credit card offers but since her surgery is going to cost $900.00 I said yes to one credit card offer.
So, that where I am at in this moment. I am just hanging on and working on moving forward in a positive way. And as many of you know that is quite the challenge in and of itself.
I will try to catch up on my blogging. I would like to finish the cruise and New Orleans stories, I know I have some awards that I am so behind on as well, and a poem I promised to write.
So tonight I bought some lottery tickets. Someone does win after all every couple of months or so.
And as part of the healing journey I will start reading tonight, “The Betrayal Bond”-Breaking free of Exploitative Relationships. I am almost afraid of what I will learn in reading that book, but I think it’s time.
I love all of my readers and followers–you guys keep me going. You have been that life saver for me in a sea of turmoil this past year. I am blessed to know all of you and to share in your stories as well.
lots of love,
Ivonne and the girls…..