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“You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should have behaved better.” —Anne Lamott

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Jay Scott Berry Post Disclaimer

While I was in a relationship with Jay Scott Berry he had often said to me that he wanted me to be the one to write his life story.

Everything you will read in the Jay Scott Berry posts are the absolute truth.  These posts were written to share my story and relationship with JSB as they are a part of my story and of my journey.  So in that sense yes I am writing a bit of JSB’s life story, the part of his life that has coincided with mine.

And yet, it has come to my attention that there are people out in the world who think/feel that my posts regarding JSB are an attempt to “destroy” him.  Let it be known that I am not trying to destroy JSB.  I am sharing my story and my relationship with JSB. It is an ugly story but none the less it is the truth.

The uglier truth is the compilation of all the stories of the different women that JSB has lied to, cheated on and abused both emotionally and physically. In the world of NPD, we call that “soul rape.”   I did not make JSB a Narcissistic Sociopath–I merely discovered the truth behind the illusion based on my experience with him, the experience of his first wife “Marina” and the patterns he continues to have with his current wife.

The purpose of these posts were to share my story and to have the truth out there so that any other “targets” might have the opportunity to discover the truth for themselves and not merely have the propaganda that JSB puts out.  The same propaganda that led me to believe that he was successful in magic, music and that he was a highly evolved spiritual being.  He is a fraud on all levels.  But don’t just take my word for it.  No, do your own research on the man.

As it turns out in that respect my blog posts have been a success. On April 21 2013 I noticed in my blog stats that the search term “jay scott berry sociopath” brought a viewer to my pages.  How odd, I thought that someone would be searching using the terms JSB and sociopath

An individual did an extensive search on my site for my story and “Marina’s”.  Needless to say JSB had targeted another woman.  Yes, there was yet another relationship/extra-marital affair with a young woman while he was still married to Lisa Richards in 2013.

So, if you are the next target reading this–please know that everything written here is the absolute truth, regardless of what JSB may have said to you about me or “Marina”.  Yes, he told me a lot of things about Marina which I discovered to be false.  His daughter with Marina is a teenager and he has pretty much emotionally and financially abandoned her.  As of this writing he is still married to Lisa and they apparently have some kind of arrangement.  When I hear of a divorce I will certainly update this post.Update the second wife left him and 2016 was the year of the divorce.

If, you are someone planning to do business with him be aware that he runs out on his debts, unless of course he thinks it might affect his standing in the magic world.

I am still owed $3000.00 for the expenditures for the trip to Malaysia which JSB assured me I would get reimbursed.

He still owes money to the Independent Music Network.

The money used to make partial payments to the Magicians in the Malaysia scandal was the money from the airline ticket refunds which should have gone back to the producer, theoretically stolen money–but hey the magicians got paid.  I guess they don’t care if JSB stole the money or not as long as they got paid?!!!

On Sept 8 2013 he started a smear campaign against me and his ex-wife Mayr.  He claimed that we were slandering him and that he only extended out love and forgiveness towards us. Really?  Below is the e-mail he sent me on Sept 9 2013.  Does it sound like love and forgiveness? I think not but judge for yourself.


Please be advised that you are currently under investigation by the State of California for Libel, Defamation of Character, Slander and attempted Extortion.

This is all you own doing. What on earth has possessed you is beyond my understanding. It is only my patience, love and compassion that are holding back the tide.

All it will take is one word from me to my lawyer and the next knock on your door will be the police.

Your future is now hanging by a thread. Please, please come to your senses.

I haven’t done anything to you, except end a brief affair that you and I never should have started. It lasted only a few weeks and that was more than a year and a half ago!

Have you forgotten how it was YOU who came to my hotel room, offered yourself to me, and then screamed like a bitch in heat for me to run out and get condoms? Ivonne’s note–I was already in his hotel room as this was the week in Feb 2012 that he was in town for meetings regarding his music career and insisted that we go to his room in between meetings. It was also the day he gave me the wolf card.

Have you forgotten how you got so drunk on our date that I had to practically carry you back to the hotel and then you threw up on me?  A note from Mayr, she is the one that threw up on him not me. That’s right, there’s nothing quite so romantic as vomit.

Have you forgotten how you tried to sexually assault me when I came to your house to pick up my things AFTER I ended our physical relationship?  If the gender roles were reversed, you know full well that I could have had you arrested then and there.  Ivonne’s note, I did not sexaully assalt him what I said to him was, ” Would it be bad of me to say that I want to rip your clothes off and fuck your brains out?”

It’s amazing how these, and so many other FACTS, haven’t made it into your outrageous, fictional story. I guess the TRUTH was the first casualty of your one-sided war upon me.

And all the while, I haven’t responded in kind. I’ve just forgiven you. While you’ve been running a deliberate smear campaign, I’ve turned the other cheek.

And still it‘s apparent that, after a year and a half, you are unable to just take responsibility for your own choices and your own actions.

So here’s the Immediate Situation:

You will cease your unwarranted attacks on me and pull down your BS webpage, immediately. Otherwise, you better get yourself a very good lawyer.

Because my lawyer is chomping at the bit to eat you for lunch. I’m holding the leash. He didn’t even want me to warn you.

Do you really want this to escalate? Are your really ready to spend time in jail???

I offer you Peace, Love, Forgiveness and Compassion. This is my Olive Branch. I hold no grudge. I Am Love.

Please consider this carefully.



On Feb 9 2014 JSB posted to his FB Wall

“It is my experience that, whenever there’s a separation between friends or lovers, there is often one who has the
personal integrity to simply get on with their life without the need to blame or  defame the other. Then, sadly, there is often one who somehow imagines that they  can build themselves up by putting the other down. By observing how one acts after a relationship has ended, you can often surmise how they acted during the relationship. True colors always shine through.” – JSB

I do not know who he is writing about but he is already setting up the next truth teller to be shot down as a liar or bitter woman.

“Another very valuable red flag to recognize when trying to spot a sociopath is to see how they deal with attacks on their own integrity. If a sociopath is presented with a collection of facts,
documents and evidence showing that he lied or deceived, he will refuse to address the evidence and, instead, attack the messenger!

If you really try to nail a sociopath down to answering a documented allegation, they will quickly turn on you, denounce you, and declare that you too are secretly plotting against them. Anyone who does not fall for the brainwashing of the sociopath is sooner or later kicked out of the circle and then wildly disparaged by the remaining members of the cult group.”

Learn more: http://www.naturalnews.com/036112_sociopaths_cults_influence.html#ixzz2Y41wOYca

As of Feb 2017 he is one year behind in child support to his oldest daughter from his first marriage.  But in the meantime although child support has been neglected back in Dec 2013 Jay and his wife Lisa did purchase a second horse.

I’m guessing that Lisa gets a horse every time she finds out about a new mistress………

Also to note he loves to talk about his 100 acre property–bought with the financial assistance of his second wife’s parents.

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He tells people that I am a psycho–hmnn psychic maybe but psycho?  He tells people that I am mad at him because he would not marry me.  Hmnn, you can’t marry a man who is already married to somebody else.  Yes, Jay tries to discredit me as is the nature of a narcissistic sociopath.  Read not only the JSB posts but the other posts as well and decide for yourself.

Please feel free to contact me at ivonnepmontijo@aol.com  if you have any questions or doubts.



The Art of Magic


The Art of Magic

     My induction into the world of magic occurred 30 years ago via, a boyfriend who at the time was a rising star of the junior members of the Hollywood Magic Castle. We were dating and I would see him perform at the Castle and hang out at Hollywood Magic store with the likes of Max Mavin, Christ Hart, Lorenzo Clark, George Tovar and many others that came through the doors of Hollywood Magic.  He would talk a lot about “real magic” and being a “real wizard”. Having come from a Catholic background I had no idea what he was talking about at the time but he gave me the book, Illusions, by Richard Bach which opened a portal into another world for me.  The relationship didn’t last but my love for magic and performance ensued.  I would eventually create, “Pinky the Clown” performing magic for little tykes.

The million dollar question in the world of professional performance magic appears to be, is magic an art, craft or neither?  There are two components that must be examined independently of each other in this question.  The first component is magic and the second component is art.  In order to be able to say that magic is art or that magic is not art one needs to define what is magic and what is art. In this article I will look at the idea of magic and art in society and culture and in their inception.  And then we can examine where is the intersection of magic and art if at all.

While pursuing my M.A. in Religious studies I took a course called, “Gender, Magic, Witchcraft and Religion.”  For the first class my professor asked me to perform my kids party act to open up the discourse on what is real magic?  In religious studies magic and religion go hand in hand.   Emile Durkheim, in The Elementary forms of Religious Life states, “that magic is full of religion just as religion is full of magic.” [1]  He also states that, “the magician is for magic what the priest is for religion.”[2]  Durkheim is referring to magic as ritual practice but the birth of the performance arts had their inception in the early religious rituals of the shamans.  Joseph Campbell states, “The myth makers of earlier days were the counterparts of our artists.”[3]  Mr. Campbell is referring to shamans.  Bill Moyers posits the following question to Campbell, “In these early elementary cultures, as you call them, who would have been the equivalent of the poets of today?”  and Campbell responds, “The shamans.”[4]


The shamans were the first storytellers and the first performers acting out myths to inform the tribes. These first performances were the religious/spiritual rituals in which the shamans led the community.   Theater grew out of  myths, ceremony and ritual which took place in daily life and theatre evolved from the performance of ritual in which the community was not a participant but a spectator. “According to the historians Oscar Brockett and Franklin Hildy, rituals typically include elements that entertain or give pleasure, such as costumes and masks as well as skilled performers.

As societies grew more complex, these spectacular elements began to be acted out under non-ritualistic conditions. As this occurred, the first steps towards theatre as an autonomous activity were being taken.”[5]  The shaman/priest was the magician.  Magician Christian Engblown states, “That when you have the ancient shamanic drawing in a cave depicting the end of the world, that’s magic.”[6]   Now some of you may be saying but magicians are not shamans.  Shamans by definition travel between altered states of consciousness to do acts to the benefit the community or society. (We will come back later to this idea of altered states of consciousness as it pertains to the ideas of art and transcendence.)

Mircea Eliade states, “For of course, the shaman is also a magician and medicine man; he is believed to cure, like all doctors, and to perform miracles of the fakir type, like all magicians, whether primitive or modern.”[7] In ancient Egypt and biblical days  the priests were magicians.  Go back to Moses battling it out with the magicians of pharaoh in his attempts to free the Hebrew slaves. In Exodus 8:7 it states, “But the magicians did the same by their secret arts and made frogs come up on the land of Egypt.”  In Acts 8:9-13 we find the following, “But there was a man named Simon, who had previously practiced magic in the city and amazed the people of Samaria, saying that he himself was somebody great. They all paid attention to him, from the least to the greatest, saying, ‘This man is the power of God that is called Great.’ And they paid attention to him because for a long time he had amazed them with his magic.” Johnny Thompson, has stated that, “At one time we held a lot of power until they caught a guy switching bricks at the last second, a gold one for a real one, you know.  But till then we were held in pretty high esteem now we have had to turn it into an art form instead of  a religious form.”[8]

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In the 1850’s Robert-Houdin, the father of modern magic combined magic, religion and politics to stop a simmering war.  The country of Algeria was rebelling led by the Marabouts, a religious sect with supposedly magical powers. They wanted the country to break its ties to France.  By request of the French bureau in Algiers, Robert-Houdin, was asked to prove that French magic was stronger than that of the Marabouts.  “Performing for the local chieftains, Robert-Houdin caused a warrior to seemingly lose his strength. By suggesting that the warrior could no longer lift a lightweight box, the warrior couldn’t. And at the end, the warrior shrieked and ran from the stage. He was secretly shocked with a jolt of electricity.”[9] The rebellion was effectively quelled by Robert-Houdin who was acting in the role of shaman/magician. Magic is the seeming representation of supernatural powers by a shaman/magician.  These representations were elements of religious/spiritual rituals performed for the community.  Religious ritual paved the way for the development of theatre.  The shaman or the magician can be said to have been the first performer, who engaged in a form of storytelling which sometimes made use of magic.

            But how do we define what is art? Art is form and content, which means that all art consists of these two things. Form is defined as the elements of art, the principles of design and the physical materials that the artist uses. Content is idea based and has to do with what the artist meant to portray, what he did portray and the spectators reaction to the work. Art can be painting, sculpture, poetry, music, dance, theatre but not all of painting, sculpture, poetry, music, dance, or  theatre is necessarily art.

These are definitely the components or elements of a work of art and in that sense magic does utilize many of these elements. Magic encompasses all of the performance arts. Dani, DaOrtiz, states magic, “plays with concepts of the arts, plays with colors, music, dance. A lot of art in one art of magic.” [10] A magic show can be visual, use props, music, dance and choreography so in a sense one can say that magic is art but we have also stated that not all so called art is “art.”  What then elevates a piece or a work to that which we call “art”? Tolstoy states that ,  “Art is one of the means of intercourse between man and man. Every work of art causes the receiver to enter into a certain kind of relationship both with him who produces or is producing, the art , and with those who, simultaneously, previously or subsequently, receive the same artistic impressions.”[11] “It is on this capacity of man to receive another man’s expression of feeling, and experience those feelings himself, that the activity of art is based.”[12]

The artist is the person who has the ability to rip out his heart and soul and to place it on a silver platter and with arms outstretched to his audience say, here take this and consume it, devour it.  Think of the art work of Frida Kahlo, who took her pain and transformed it into art. Yes, the ability to transform pain both physical and emotional is the transmutative power of the artist. We take the pain of being in relationship with life and turn it into art–whether in song-poetry-music-writing or magic. We are sharing our pain or our point of view with other’s so that they can go yes–yes that ‘s it what you created is what I am feeling –what I too have gone through but I did not know how to say it……..that is the power of the artist—It is not celebrity or fame —it is the power to connect with another human being on a soul level such that not only are you transformed by the creation of the art–the releasing of the pain into something beautiful but also the observer is too transformed and taken to another level of spirit. That is what I feel artist’s are about—well at least that is what I intend in my art with the end result of looking for the higher spiritual truth that is contained in that pain. Art can then be defined by having the quality of transcendence from the mundane to a higher spiritual realm.

The question then remains is magic an art?  Does magic have within it the element of transcendence?  Brad Henderson states that ,”magic is inherently pornography because it’s so easy to get a WOW or an AHH.  That the lowest form of magic and all magicians care about is reactions. It’s about how you make people feel. And if it’s just the wow, then you are a pornographer, a magic pornographer.”[13] Jay Scott Berry has said that, “Magic is, by its very nature, is a mind expanding art form. Even the simplest illusion demonstrates that the boundaries of perception are not necessarily the boundaries of reality.” Starhawk defines magic as, “the art of changing consciousness at will”.[14] But how would this idea of transcendence translate into magic.  Lupe Neilson states, ” Eventually, the goal of any great performer … is to transcend the mundane and create a sensation of true Wonder.” [15]


     Such is the art of René Lavand.  If anyone can claim the title of master artist in magic it would be René Lavand. He does with one hand what I could not even conceive of with two.  I had the pleasure of seeing him perform at the Hollywood Magic Castle. I am fortunate that I speak Spanish and was be able to understand him in his native language as his words were sheer poetry and the translator missed the beauty of his words. I was in awe and wonder. I left that show feeling as if the magic was real.

And therein lies the key to art.  Art is the experience that the participant walks away with.  It is that moment in time however brief where one feels connected to the mysterious, to the divine via one soul to the other. Magic is the most ancient and mysterious of arts. It was via the shaman/magician that the tribes connected to the mysterious.  This tradition continues with modern-day artists. Yes, Magic can be an art in the hands of an artist.

The best thing that we can do as artist is to rip off our masks and to expose the soul that lies underneath and there we find the words, the songs, the music, the art, the poetry  and the magic.  And in that communion and sharing we uplift the planet and others. Our experiences are merely the point of reference for our art. It is in that creative space that we find resonance and transcendence  with life.

Ivonne Perez Montijo, M.A.





[1] Durkheim, Emile, The Elementary Forms of Religious Life, p. 58

[2] Ibid, p. 60

[3] Campbell, Joseph, The Power of Myth, p.85

[4] Campbell, Joseph, The Power of Myth, p.85

[5] Brockett and Hildy (1968; 10th ed. 2010), History of the Theater.

[6] Wilson, Paul, Is Magic an Art? video 2012, ConCam Films, http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=GNGDoroJtYw

[7] Eliade, Mircea, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy

[8] Wilson, Paul, Is Magic an Art? video 2012, ConCam Films, http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=GNGDoroJtYw

[10] Ibid.

[12] Ibid, p. 48

[13] Wilson, Paul, Is Magic an Art? video 2012, ConCam Films, http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=GNGDoroJtYw

[14] Starhawk, The Spiral Dance p. 7

[15]  Anthony Darkstone Brook In Conversation With Lupe Nielsen, p 3

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